Lonely Fathers Day this week................

It has been my 11th time not celebrating fathers day...and I almost forget what is the true meaning of it...I still remember the last time celebrating the special day with him. That time father was very sick, and that was the most difficult but happy moment in life. My family don't have much money to buy food celebrates so we just have 2 chicken drumsticks for him, after the dinner I gave him a very special gift that he & me will never forget in life. This is the first time I give him a selfmade fathers day card, although it is quite ugly, but my father feels proud that his son finally knows what is the meaning of fathers day.

Then he tell me three things that I will never forget in my life. First, not to easily give up in life, stand up when you fall down, never let yourself on the ground when you still have breath. Secondly, ignore nonsense that someone talk about you and no need to explain more when someone don't believe in you. Thirdly, always be happy no matter what surrounding you are in. Lastly, he promised me a thing he would never achieve in his life, that is he would see me graduate in university. He pass away after 5 months...

Today, many of my friends have leave Kuching, go for their adventures university life and many of them have almost success in their dream. I am the only one left stay in kuching here...still far away from success. Just doing some part time works and having a normal College life. I feel my self very far away from my ex-classmate...haiz....

But I promise you dad, when I have breath I will try to reach my goal no matter how many time I fall down. I wouldn't complain the one who blame me without knowing what is my excuse, and I will always be happy....I love you dad...you will always in my heart...always....There will always a Fathers Day in my heart. Happy Fathers Day. And I love you too mom although you always like to blame me with a very weird and nonsense reasons.